Playing the part of Jake, but wanting to play Karen

Jake Smith, the lead male character in my novel, has his heart set on falling in love. Karen, my lead female character, has just lost her boyfriend and is falling in love with God. Over the past two days, my heart has become unsatisfied. It's been much more than a year since I broke up with...and I'm really wanting that again. A couple of nights in a row I've had dreams about my last boyfriend. The first one, he came back to me and said that he was sorry he ever left me...and he really wanted me back. I logically questioned about his wife, what about her? He said that she didn't matter. Well, in the dream my heart wanted a relationship again, but I didn't want him. My heart was not willing to take him back. I was glad for that dream. But the second dream he and I were dating, there was no wife, and I was happy. Ugh! First of all, I have not been thinking about him, nor do I want to. Second of all, the first dream was right. Even if he left his wife, which he wouldn't, I wouldn't want him back in my life.
But I want someone.
So I come to this conclusion...it's funny that I have been working on my novel, because ultimately the story is about someone who wants to fall in love and does, but not the way he expects. I guess then the only thing I can say is that God is asking me to continue to be content in singleness.
Why now though? I've been fine being single for quite some time. But now my heart longs for someone to hold it? Ugh! The Bible is right, who can know the heart? :(